I'm actually obese
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| Picture taken on January 11 of 2016 |
This past year has been quite the roller coaster in terms of my body image and weight. I was diagnosed with bell's palsy, I would get extreme headaches and I didn't want to irritate any nerves so I made the difficult decision to not work out. So in those 2 1/2 months I gained weight.
As soon as I began healing from bell's palsy I got back on the fitness wagon, only 2 weeks later I got into an accident, almost 400lbs landed on me. I broke and fractured a couple of ribs, it took 7 weeks to finally be able to get out of bed without a scream and sleep without grunting.
On the 8th week I was feeling a lot better except for one fractured rib, I decided to go ahead and start with walking, than biking and last a fitness dance challenge, well only 6 days into my dance challenge and I re-injured that rib. So as hard as it was, I put all forms of exercise aside.
In total I spent about 7 months on and off of my fitness wagon, unable to be completely devoted to my exercise. For the most part I did stay committed to my nutrition, however I am human and fell off that wagon a few times too. I went back into my binge eating habits and to my enemy, my drug of choice; BREAD.
So I found myself almost 20 lbs heavier than where I had originally started. A total of 32 lbs over weight! Completely devastated, I recently searched the world wide web for what my healthy weight should be and I discovered that I am obese! Ha ha! I couldn't stop laughing. But than it made me concerned and angry.
I am so glad I have a clear grasp of reality and that I have a good level of self esteem because otherwise this information could easily send anyone into a depression or some sort of destructive behavior.
I wonder how many young girls and women out there are having a negative feeling towards their bodies. Sites like these don't help and I wish they didn't exist. I can't do much about that but what I can do is spread the word that the scale is just a number and should never be a reflection of beauty or body image.
Yes I have gained weight, Yes my curves have expanded and the booty inflated, but NO, I am NOT obese and I refuse to allow any website or person tell me otherwise!
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| Picture taken on January 11 of 2016 |
No matter how many laps I ran, how much basket ball I played or how many hours I skipped rope for, my body remained the same. I was forever stuck in this ugly inflated body. These thought patterns and feelings did not appear on their own, events and people in my life impacted how I saw the world and how I felt about myself.
Those days are a far away memory because at the age of 16 I decided to start making my own rules, dictate my own life and be in charge of what I put in my head. I decided I was WORTHY and deserved respect, love and yes acceptance.
I love my body now, I love every curve, there are days when I give in to things I know are not the best for my health or belly and so I get bloated. My weight fluctuates and my curves remain, they go from hill to mountains but curves they are and I absolutely wouldn't want to not have them. And guess what even slim girls have curves, my sight was simply so distorted in my early teen years.
My mission is to bring more awareness to this issue and help young girls and women love their bodies no matter what stage of fit they are at. I would love it if you joined me in this journey. Make sure you know and let others know that FIT looks different on everyone and you don't need to be "ripped" to be "fit". Also there is a huge difference between putting on a few pounds from that of being obese. I do not want to put on really extremely unhealthy weight, and so my journey continues but I am at peace that I am far from obese.
Please use the hashtag #HappyHealthyFitCurves and spread the love to all.
Stay fresh xoxo,
Ana
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| Picture taken on January 11 of 2016 |
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